There’s the… I like her.

And the…. I like him.
Then there’s the… I hate her!
And the…. I hate him!
Oh, there’s the…. I can’t STAND it when he…
And the…. she gets on my NERVES when she…
Oh, Oh, Wait, don’t forget the….
This would have never happened if he…
Or the… I’m so HAPPY that she…
Humph….. Relationship.
Once this… “R Word” rolls
Off the tongue
And the sound of it rolls
Into your ears,
Into your consciousness,
Into your pattern of thought,
The Brain processes it QUICKLY
Into one category.
But there are so many
He’s and She’s, Hims and Hers in the world,
Right?
Its not just that ONE he
Or
That ONE she
So narrow is the mind.
Many times
We
Focus on getting and maintaining the one
That our other relationships begin to
Suffer.
They get taken for granted.
They get misrepresented.
They even get neglected.
But in every relationship we should reflect
The relationship we have in God.
As the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit
Are in their respective places
So should every relationship
Be
In its proper place in our lives.
Like a flower that buds, blooms and grows
It can be called BEAUTIFUL by all those
Who see it.
All of your relationship can all be just the same.

-KM

First and foremost, I would like to thank you for your loyalty. I don’t think there are that many bloggers out there that actually take the time out to thank their readers for even stopping by the page to read what they have written. I appreciate every reader that has stopped by thus far. All of your comments are appreciated… I enjoy each and every one of them. If this is your first time visiting the site, I really hope that I have said something that causes you to at least think on a moral, intellectual, or spiritual level.

Secondly, I would like to apologize for not posting as regularly as I should. Sometimes we get distracted from the things we like to do when life’s little annoyances pop up in our lives. However, I will try to make a better effort to post more entries more often.

Once again, this is a special thank you and formal apology to my lovely readers. Please, be blessed.

-KM

This entry is meant to get you thinking about forgiveness… feel free to respond. Thanks

Many times we are just too hard on our selves…. especially us Christians. If Christ died to save us from sin and death. If all that Christ requires and desires is for us to accept him and repent of our evil ways… and we have done these two things… then why do we STILL condemn ourselves? We allow guilt and remorse to burden and torment our lives. Christ didn’t come to put a burden on us…and he definitely didn’t come to torment us… but he came to RELEASE the burden and the torment off of us. So, why haven’t we fully accepted the fact that the past that we have repented of and have done our best to turn away from is done away with… to exist no more?

The answer lies in our perspective… and how we tend to view our lives. We fail to realize most times that the human perspective is warped, and incapable of seeing the bigger picture. Our eyes can only see in part with a limited range to see ahead into our own future. In all actuality, the human perspective has the inability to see into the the future of our own lives at all. Although we would like to think that we will know where and what we’re going to be in a year, 3 months or even a week from now but the reality of the matter is that we truly don’t even know where and who we are going to be tomorrow. And its in this view of life… this human perspective that we tend to view our entire lives, including our past.

There is nothing…. absolutely nothing you can do to change what you have already done wrong. It is over…. what is done is done. And if it is truly over, why do we keep bringing that which is over into our present lives and eventually into our future lives? Let it truly over and allow yourself to see your life through God’s eyes. Regardless of what you’ve done and what you will do. God loves you. He will always be there and he will always see you as who He created you to be. Saved or unsaved…. God’s view of you never changes. We are usually the ones to change, turn away, and/or reject the Lord. However, the lovely person he created you to be is the lovely person that he sees. God is love. And He will always love you and He will forgive you if you ask to be forgiven.

I’ve come to realize that forgiveness is a choice. You choose to forgive someone else and you choose to forgive yourself. Forgiving never means forgetting… a lot of times we link these two together when they shouldn’t be linked at all. Forgiveness is choosing not to hold an action or offense against the one who committed it. Although, you may remember what you did wrong… be free from the burden and the torment and choose not to hold it against yourself. God… in all His Glory, in all His Holiness, in all His Deity, in all His Power, in all His Sovereignty…MY God.. the Supreme Bring of the Universe who is at will to do whatever He wants, whenever He wants….. the God who has NEVER sinned… My God chose to forgive us of our sins. So, why can’t we choose to forgive ourselves, as well as others? The bible says all have sinned and fell short of the glory of God. Forgiveness should be a part of our character being that the entire human race has been guilty of doing something wrong at one point in our lives.

In closing, have mercy on yourself…. and stop condemning and torturing yourself for the mistakes you have made. Instead, choose to forgive yourself and move forward from where you are now in your life. Be free…

-KM

Not all the time, as a college student, you get the opportunity or the time to go back and write a letter or express how you really feel about a professor and the way they chose to treat you in their class. So, I’ve taken the time out to do just that, in story form. So, lets start from the beginning. Spring semester of 2008, the worst semester of my life…

It all started when I enrolled in a writing class that I necessarily didn’t have to take. But I took it because I thought that it would better prepare me for the field that I was getting into and it would further enhance the scope of my writing style. I also thought that it would be an easy course because I’m usually very good at anything that involves writing and/or editing. So, first day of classes finally roll around. I get there and upon entering the room, all of my excitement left me in a moment’s time. As I looked at the little old woman, my professor, at the front of the class room I realized that this class was going to be very challenging. Although I felt very uneasy, I did my best to push those feelings aside and just blame it all on the anxiety of knowing that I was going to have to endure another rough semester.

Come to find out, this little old lady created this rule that you cannot even begin to write a paper without her approving your idea first. So, I submitted idea after idea after idea and this woman wouldn’t budge.  I began to see her after every class to sit and talk to her as to why she hasn’t approved any of my ideas. When that didn’t work, I started making additional appointments to sit with her at her office hours. Then, out of desperation, I began asking friends and family to see if they can help me perfect my ideas. FINALLY, two months passed and I got ONE idea approved. I had to find sources and write about suicide. So, I did what I needed to do to produce a first draft. It was critiqued by the class and returned to me. But by this time, I was already two assignments behind in course work and needed to finish the first one that I started.

Throughout all of this,  the grand idea to drop the course did cross my mind. But I decided against it and allowed the time I had to drop the course to slip through my fingers. I chose to suffer through it. I mean, I’ve been able to pull myself through quite a few tough classes before and receive a passing grade. So, why couldn’t I do the same for this one? “You can do it,” I said. “You can still pass this class,” I said. “There is still enough time to catch up,” I said. “You can press your way through it,” I said. But although I was putting in this extra personal time, taking the time to speak with the professor every time we had class, and scheduling meetings at her office hours, things still went from bad to worse.

After all that I’ve been through with this woman, I finally began to realize that the issue wasn’t me. I was not the problem why I could not progress forward in this class because I took all the necessary steps that any responsible student would have taken in my position. I was not the problem. It was. This little old lady, wasn’t just a little old lady in my eyes anymore. She was a Beast. An evil beastly woman that, for some reason, had something against me and the students in this class. I was not the only one to complain about The Beast. She has been the source of evil for a lot of students, too bad I didn’t know about this sooner. Here I am spending $300 per credit for this 3 credit course and this wo… I mean, Beast… had the nerve to take my money, treat me like crap, cause me to be behind in my work and then fail me on top of it all. Isn’t the reason why you fail someone is because they either did no work, or showed no significant effort in doing the work? This wasn’t a class where there were right and wrong answers. By the end of this semester, I felt cheated, mistreated, discouraged,  and stupid. The Beast showed no interest in at least convincing anyone to believe that she wanted anyone to pass this class. Everything was vague and out of order. She always had an attitude and barely smiled. In my opinion, it was almost like she wanted everyone around her to die.

If I had the to opportunity to speak with The Beast ever again, my final words would be:

You… you have successfully managed to create a hell on earth for someone just by them simply being in your presence. You… you are like a third degree burn. Instantaneously, you begin to eat away at a person’s hope and dream for their future. Once the damage is done, the scars you leave behind take forever to heal. After interacting with you, that person will NEVER be the same. You chose to work in a place where people are in need of encouragement, some support from their family, as well as the outside world. College is supposed to be that tunnel that leads you to a light. It is considered the last step before a person rightfully takes their rite-of-passage into the corporate world. You chose to work in a place like this so you can plant your destruction. Although you made it so that I would fail your class, I did learn at least one thing…. and that is how not to become an evil, old, beastly fart like you. Thanks.

-KM

Ps- Yeah, you see that picture up there? You know, the one at the beginning of this entry? Yup… That’s her.

“You teach the youth about Christopher Columbus
And you said he was a very great man
You teach the youth about Marco Polo
And you said he was a very great man
You teach the youth about the pirate Hawkins
And you said he was a very great man
You teach the youth about the pirate Morgan And you said he was a very great man

So You can’t blame the youth of today
You can’t fool the youth
You can’t blame the youth
You can’t fool the youth

All these great men were doing
Robbing, raping, kidnapping and killing
So-called great men were doing
Robbing, raping, kidnapping”

- Bob Marley and the Wailers

So, today is the day allocated to celebrate Christopher Columbus. I remember learning in elementary school that Christopher Columbus was the one that discovered America, along with some other places in the world. I remember some saying that said, “In 1492, he sailed the ocean blue…” something like that. Ever since I was younger, I always had a bad feeling about this day… and I still do. They’re just stronger now. As a woman in her 20’s, I believe Christopher Columbus deserves no honor. He does not and should not be remembered for anything he has done and he deserves no credit for anything. This Christopher Columbus was a wicked, evil, self-righteous, prideful and heartless man. The evil this man has done was omitted from the history books so that people can be made to believe that this man was a saint.

Let’s get one fact straight. Christopher Columbus (I’m just going to call him Columbo from now on)  WAS NOT, I repeat, WAS NOT a Spaniard. Columbo was Italian. He just moved to Spain when he couldn’t take Italy anymore. Columbo didn’t discover anywhere. The places that he went to and the places he claimed he discovered were already inhabitated. How can you discover somewhere that was already discovered? Columbo killed over a million Native Americans or more. Not to mention how many other people he killed off in the other countries he visited. This man invented slavery in the Americas. Slavery in the Americas, namely North America, was different that the slavery that the rest of the world knew. Slaves in other countries had rights. They were human beings and were treated like such. But slaves in America were treated like cattle, like things instead of people.

Columbo was a mass murderer, a serial killer, a creator of genocide, a thief, a man who deceived people, a rapist, a pedophile, a spreader of diseases and just a wicked and evil man. Anything evil I can think of, I can probably attach Columbo to it. The more I read up on him is the more I wonder, why would America continue to celebrate this man? I don’t believe that Columbo is a person that should be celebrated in this country. I don’t believe that he deserves a day. I don’t believe that this man should be recognized for discovering anything. As part Jamaican and African American, why would I even take the time to be grateful for this day off? I want to go to work! Even though this man has been dead for centuries, he continues to rob people. Here I am, having a day off when I want to get to work. Today could be yet another day where I can say “Another day, another dollar.”  But I can’t. I’m earning no money today thanks to friggin Columbo. For what this man stands for and what he has done in the world, I cannot be happy knowing that my day off was because of him. Martin L. King I can understand. Ghandi I can understand. Even if they had an Obama day where work and school would be closed, I would still understand. But for this fool?? Why?

Maybe some of you reading this entry maybe thinking that I’m’ taking this a bit overboard. But what I want to know is, why are we giving this man any respect? It boggles my mind. I don’t have any logical reasons why I would want to celebrate a killer. Please enlighten me. I don’t see why this is a holiday.

-KM

What to do when you feel like no one remembers you? When everything seems like its a struggle just to let others recognize that you exist? When you have people that call you “friend” and yet they only remember you when they need something. What about those days when even your mind turns against you. You begin to think that because you have standards in regards to how you want to be treated and you stand for certain unpopular beliefs that this HAS TO BE the reason why people tend to forget you. I mean, after all people tend to remember things and people that they are interested in. If there’s no interest, then more than likely, forgetfulness will take place. Oh and what about the ones that you were once close with, huh? There was nothing on earth that could break the bond you shared, whether it was a friendship, mutual relationship with the opposite sex, or even a parent-child relationship. Then, next thing you know they’re…. gone. They deserted you to go be with someone else that was never there for them like you have. In all these situations and circumstances, what do you do?

It boggles my mind when things like this happen because when the shoe is on the other foot, people don’t want any of these things happening to them. Yet, they find it in their heart to mistreat others so easily. If you know that your action towards someone is not something that you want to experience yourself, why even act the action out? I don’t think people think about that. They just respond however they want to respond, do what they want to do, and say what they feel without any thought about how it would affect the next person. And its a shame.

I was also thinking about this as well. They say that it takes a village to raise a child, right? But when that child becomes an adult, what happens to the village? The village is no where to be found. In the village, the child was used to others saying, “Lean on me I’m here for you.” But now that child suddenly becomes an adult and then the story changes. It turns to, “You better not lean on me, I got my own mouth to feed.” Where’s the transition? How do you get from one to the next? That’s the part that alot of people leave out. And that’s when a person feels most forgotten. Those who know how to get from one place to the next tend to say nothing to help the young ones that don’t know because as according to them, they had to figure it out on their own too. And then, they forget about it…. like the one that needed help didn’t even matter. I’m not supporting that idea that people should be spoon-fed all the days of their life but shouldn’t there be more preparation for the next generation to succeed?

-KM

I was speaking with my mother about how people tend to use the word “Hell.” No one living on this earth has ever been to Hell, seen Hell, felt Hell or know all the facts about Hell. We don’t know where the exact location of where Hell is, neither do we know the extent of how bad of a place Hell is simply because those of us that are living have never been there. Yet and still, people have the tendency to use the word Hell in their everyday language like its no big deal. Here are some examples of how people use the word Hell. They say:

-Aww Hell

-What the hell?

-Who the hell are you? or who the hell do you think you are?

-They are happy… as hell.

-Hell no or Hell yeah.

-Hell!!!!

-Go to Hell.

People tend to say “Aww Hell” when they are disappointed or let down in some way, shape, or form. People say “What the Hell” when something outrageous happens. For example, lets say  someone went into work and saw their boss with their hair died with every single color imaginable, kinda like a rainbow or a bag of Skittles. A very outrageous, off the wall moment. Well, maybe my example is a little extreme but hopefully, you can see what I’m getting at. Its outrageous moments like these where people take it upon themselves to say “What the Hell.” Now when people say “Who the Hell are you” or “Who the Hell do you think you are,” just know that you have offended them in some way and they felt justified at that moment to include the word “Hell.” People have even made  a simile out of the word “Hell.” “Happy as Hell,” “Evil as Hell,” and “Fine as Hell” are some examples. “Hell no” or “Hell yeah” is another way people have used the word “Hell” to express how much they disagree or agree with something. Yelling only the word “Hell” is used to express extreme frustration or extreme anger. And finally, saying “Go to Hell,” in the ultimate insult. If you want to insult someone and hopefully erase them from your life forever, just use these three magic words.

Now that I have explained each of my examples let me move on to why I’m even writing this entry. Hell, is a spiritual place that was originally created only for Satan and the angels that chose to go against God. But then, after Adam and Eve sinned and sin entered into the world, people also are able to go there because they chose not to believe in God during the time they were living their lives on earth. As far as our generation goes, all those who have not accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour are Hell bound. Salvation is a free gift. You do nothing to get it except believe. If you believe that Jesus came to save your life from sin and Hell, then you are saved… and that’s it. And no one is able to revoke this gift, not even yourself. It is eternal for as long as you believe. Now, why would anyone refer to anything or express themselves in any way using the word “Hell”? If Hell was created for Satan, the epitome of all evil, why would you even refer to that word at all. Hell is real. And no one on this earth knows the horribleness it contains, so why refer to something you know nothing about?

Did you know that even Hell has a fate? The bible says that Hell and Death will be cast into the Lake of Fire. So, especially for those who tend to have a habit of telling people to “Go to Hell,” do you really know what you are saying? In my opinion, you are saying, to first go suffer the fate that Satan must suffer and be punished like you are Satan himself. Then later, go into the Lake of Fire (you, Satan, and all things evil) to be eternally destroyed forever for as long as God lives. And we all can agree that God lives on for infinity. Hell is not a place to just randomly mention and to use carelessly in our every day speech. Hell was created by God for Satan’s punishment for going against Him. Not that Hell is sacred, but it should be respected for what God created it for. It is not something we can just play around with. Hell represents God’s Judgment and His hate for all things evil. We think we know what hate is, huh? When God hates something, that is some SERIOUS hate. All I know is, I really don’t want anything about me, what I do, or anything remotely related or symbolic of me to be referred to using the word “Hell”.

Using Hell all the time in our language is a horrible way of expressing ourselves. Hell is serious and nothing to be played with. Please, everyone please watch your mouths.

-KM

I don’t know where these things come from but I was just thinking and I came to the conclusion that its so EASY to judge other people and yet so difficult to judge ourselves. Its easy to point the finger than own up to your own responsibilities… or the lack thereof. Only if we all could just learn how to judge ourselves by the same measure that we judge others. Judge and point the finger at yourself.

-KM

Sometimes… the things we worry about is nothing but a little vapor. It is us that blows up that small vapor into a big black ball of smoke in our minds.

-KM

I’ve come to the realization that many things in life is a choice. Nothing in life just…. happens. You CHOOSE to forgive, to stop worrying, to get over the past… its all choices. You just have to have enough determination to make those kind of choices. And that’s what people lack… determination and a made up mind.

-KM

Not even a month after Pres. Obama was sworn into office as the President of the United States, a racist cartoon is printed in one of America’s leading newspapers. Just when many thought that change has finally come to America, when people began to leave America’s dark past in the past and move forward as a single and unified entity, cartoonist Sean Delonas with the help of the New York Post aided in digging into America’s healing scabs.

The caption within the cartoon suggests that the chimp or monkey is the creator of the recently passed stimulus bill. And we all know that the creator of the stimulus bill is Pres. Obama. This cartoon has greatly disturbed and disgusted the African American community. Like the saying says, a picture says a thousand words. This cartoon, this picture drawn by this popular cartoonist may bring a lot of words to the mind of the individual who looks at it. Some of those words could include, Racism, Violence, Cruelty, Prejudice, Hate, Rage, Foolishness, and Ignorance, just to name a few.

Personally, this cartoon drawn by Mr. Delonas shows the content of his heart. The violence and hatred was already embedded in his heart and it was only a matter of time before he let it out. This cartoon makes me wonder how many other people are hiding feelings of hatred, racism and violence in their hearts and minds. Some people, especially anyone of African decent, would be inclined to hate this cartoonist because of the content of his drawing. However, we all need to keep in mind that two wrongs will never make a right but one right will always defeat ten million wrongs. Although this man was wrong for creating this cartoon and for even allowing the evil feelings to remain within his heart, we must not and cannot allow what this man has done to provoke us to create the same hatred and violence within us.

I feel sorry for Mr. Delonas and the others that agreed to publicize this hatred in the newspaper and over the Internet. I am sad to say that yes, racism still exists. I am sad to say that maybe America hasn’t moved past the past yet…. but instead has been covering up the past with a false sense of brotherhood and unity. When things like this happen, it makes you question whether or not America has truly moved forward.  “Does America really respect and accept people of color and other minorities or has America just been tolerating us because discrimination, segregation, and prejudice is deemed unconstitutional?” A question like this would come to mind because racism seems to have taken on a different approach than from the past.

In the past, racism was a blatant, explicit, and outright intolerance of a race. Now, racism has taken on a more subtle approach. It is not a blatant and obvious occurrence anymore but its more undercover now. It happens behind closed doors, in private, and behind the backs of people who can be a potential victim of a racist attack. This cartoon should be a wake up call to everyone that sees it. Although it sends a negative message to the public in regards to people of African decent, this cartoon should cause people to think. It should cause you to think about the position of your heart and about whether your heart and mind is holding the same intolerance demonstrated in this cartoon. Any type of hate, violence, and prejudice will always lead to a death of some kind, whether it be the spiritual, emotional, physical, or mental death of yours or of someone else.

 

-KM

It’s been about 30 days since President-elect Barack Obama was declared the winner of the 2008 election against Sen. John McCain. To witness this great historic moment has been like a dream that became a pleasant reality. After years of injustice, segregation, prejudice, and many other obstacles that stood in the way of African American, we finally have a black man as the Commander in Chief of the United States of America.

November 4, 2008 was one of the proudest days in American history and Janurary 20, 2009 will make everything official. However, I would like to point out that this is not something that just African Americans can rejoice in. But this achievement can be celebrated by every race that falls underneath the label called “Minority.” This is an open door for every non-Caucasian and a means to celebrate. America is a land where many different types of people from many different place in the world have come to create a different life for themselves. There is no one heritage, or one culture but America’s culture is a mixture of many cultures. And all of them have pulled together to make this country a great one.

Even Caucasian Americans can celebrate the victorious win of President-elect Barack Obama because this time in American history marks another moment where they overcame the many issues concerning race. It is a moment where Americans can say, we have grown in our morals and improved greatly in our preconceptions of people of color. It is a moment in time where there is proof that American people have progressed beyond that which used to hinder them in the past.

In conclusion, the next 4 years will be great and hopefully Pres. Obama will win another election and make the following 4 years even greater than the first. Enjoy this time. All of us are a part of history.

-KM